I was reading a book on men's health today at the school library and I found out all lot of cool facts. Even though the book was targeted toward adults in their 30's or so, I still found many ideas to be applicable.

*Make subsitutions when you eat for a healthier diet. E.g. Subsitute burgers for roast beef sandwiches, subsitute pretzels for chips, subsitute cheese pizza in place of perpperoni pizza, etc.
*Instead of eating fewer calories, eat LESS fat and exercise MORE.
*get BUFF (actually, I'll subsitute buff with lean because I don't wanna stunt my growth)
*get LEAN

Convo clips with Audreq:
clone tim: what do you mean "working on labels"?
Od******120: for this bug collection
clone tim: hehehehehe
clone tim: so did you have to catch them all
Od******120: i utterly
Od******120: despise
Od******120:: bugs
Od******120: yes
clone tim: ahh i see
clone tim: how fun
Od******120: catch, kill, pin, dry,
Od******120: -_-

....later on...
Od******120: yea i had to freeze some when my poison jar wasn't working

OH MAN I'm freezing. I thought today was going to be warm (it was sunny when I woke up) but it turns out that today is as cold as ever. I'll treat this as an oppertunity to become a SURVIVOR.

Yesterday's orchestra rehersal was somewhat eventful/funny. Besides the many SARS jokes, some dude was making these weird baby noises (or something like that). Yair yelled "Shut up!" but it didn't exaclty stop. Heh heh, I like rehersals like those.

Still freezing, but now it's time for class. Lock and load, baby!

Ok, that was sort of stupid.

MUY GANGSTERIL!

First post since I left for Mexico. I'll sort of type freely because I don't want to check my structure and grammer, etc.

My group in Mexico was lead by Angela and Grant, so obviously it was a BLAST!! Man, I love everyone on the team so much. Girls: you were such sweet, friendly people. Guys: you were all totally gangsters and awsome friends(VW*****087: MUY GANGSTERIL!). I'll still see you all, but I'll miss seeing you guys everyday! Rev. Ralph, pastor Angela, and Grant; you guys are my heros! You all shared some powerful messages during the trip! Other heros: Jason H (mr. caring), Vicki (the kid carer and craft master!), Joline (the expert baloon maker), Ricky (the fearless friend asker), Virginia (the kid lover), Jason (the friendly/warm bud - happy belated award man), ... Those are just a few people off the top of my head. I'm telling you though, everyone on the team is awsome and have lots of respect from me.

We did a lot of ministry with neighborhood children and went to a rehab center and jail to present our dramas and such. The greatest experiances for me were with the children. I met this little buddy dude at this one orphanage named Manuel, man was that kid a sweety. I helped him make his loaves and fish craft and discussed deep issues with him (such as: how old are you?) At another orphange I played with a few kids. One boy I called "el muchacho de canicas" (the boy of marbles) because he had a bottle full of marbles and I was shooting them around with him. I talked with him and he gave me some marble lessons. With another kid, I was asking what music he liked, I expected him to say something like "Enrique Inglesias" or something, but gess what? He said he liked music that glorified God! What an amazing kid. I painted and played with this other child who was such a buddy. Ohh man, when he gave me a hug I was just saying "Mi amiiigo mi amiiiiiiiiiigo" because I just loved him so much.

It sad to be away from Mexico and from the children, but really it's just the start of something great God wants to do in my life. The trip and experiance has lifted my spirit and put on my heart care for others in and out of church. I love ya all-

peace out.

I usually don't talk about depression/love in my blog, but since I'm leaving San Jose I'll leave you some emotion. My family went out to eat today and I got fortune cookie at the end of the meal. It said "beauty in its various forms appeals to you."

I just want to let my emotions go and say that I think that you are so beautiful. I'm not saying this to any particular person, I'm saying this to all of you. You are significant to me. You are special; anything you have said or done towards me has changed my life in some way. I really thank you for that. You are a form of beauty. You appeal to me.

Life can become depressing. Call me up and we'll talk.

"There's no control, he just lets his emotions go."

After a long aim convo with EwA* today I took a picture of myself holding a sign that said "Happy Birthday Terry." I had no idea who Terry was, but being her birthday and all... I had to do it for her! HAHAHAHA those two crack me up (you guys should join some kind of comic troupe!!!):

Su**** (11:48:41 AM): she feels very... honored
Su**** (11:48:44 AM): =]
clone tim (11:49:31 AM): a birthday comes only once a year
Su**** (11:49:35 AM): =]
Su**** (11:49:39 AM): where's MINE?
clone tim (11:49:54 AM): it's not your birthday buddy
Su**** (11:50:02 AM): and an UNbirthday comes 364 days a year!!
Su**** (11:50:13 AM): happy happy unbirthday today's ur special day!
Su**** (11:50:27 AM): have a very happy unbirthday
Su**** (11:50:28 AM): to you?
Su**** (11:50:30 AM): to me!
Su**** (11:50:43 AM): -_-
clone tim (11:50:45 AM): you bet

I had a very weird dream last night, but everything that happened seemed very real. When you read this blog keep that in mind.

I was walking with Nela* in this old, brown, open roofed castle. We were checking up on all the people there and then Hsiu Fan's mom came asking for Hsiu Fan (Hsiu Fan is a friend from my church if you don't allready know.) So Nela* and I went up a floor to go look for Hsiu Fan. Then I noticed that Nela was crying. At first I didn't say anything but I finally asked if everything was all right. "Is it personal business?" I asked. She told me "Yeah, it's personal business."

Once we were on the upper floor, I was noticing how gray the sky seemed. Then I saw Hsiu Fan standing near a line of little Chinese kids by the building's edge. The kids were sitting, one leg foward, one leg back, with their backs toward the ledge, on top of a low wall that was perpendicular to the side of the building. Each child held on the the foot in front of them. I saw that the child nearest to the ledge was letting herself hang over the edge of the building while holding onto the foot of the girl in front of her. Somehow, the girl hanging lost her grip or something, and she started to fall. She let out a pathetic yell.

"HOOOH CRAP, SHE FELL!" I yelled. I rushed over to look and I saw her painfully hit the ground (it was quite a drop). Then she stood back up and looked at me. "Wait, she's not dead." Nela didn't seem to notice, but instead offered to sit as the anchor at the front of the line. "Now you hold on to here," she said, placing a little girl's hand on her ankle. She said this as if to prevent an accident from ever happening again. So the girl who was now at the back of the line hung over, and the group jerked her up and down for fun.

I decided to stick up that pop-ghetto-(fob)-gangsta pic on the side because it makes me look like a pop-ghetto-(fob)-gangsta.

I heard this Weezer Demo on the radio today called "Private Message." Nice song.

clone tim (10:55:59 PM): but since I'm not
clone tim (10:56:12 PM): Beeeeeh :-P.
rwbbiajaeu(10:56:16 PM): u could be a movie star
clone tim (10:56:30 PM): yeah ill go to one of those little countries
rwbbiajaeu (10:56:34 PM): HAHA
rwbbiajaeu(10:56:35 PM): no
clone tim (10:56:37 PM): population 1,000
rwbbiajaeu(10:56:37 PM): go to china
rwbbiajaeu (10:56:41 PM): HAHAHA
clone tim (10:56:47 PM): i can be in one of those soap operas!!!!
rwbbiajaeu (10:56:52 PM): noooo!
rwbbiajaeu(10:56:56 PM): be in those fighting ones
clone tim (10:57:00 PM): oh yeah
clone tim (10:57:18 PM): i'll probably only get to be the guys who get shot

Thanks rwbbiajaeu*, *sniff* you really made my day!!

*in CODE

What up

Hey Hibbt* and Big Brother, this picture is just for you guys. See, this is what happens when your role models go off to college (Bahaha)!!!!

Hibbt, you said to represent pop, and... the other stuff. Hiiiiiibbbttt.

*name changed (scrambled!)

I basically spent the whole day at church. I guess I'll have to get serious with the school work tomorrow. Since no one could make it to worship practice, I just played guitar by myself and let John listen to me sing. Then at around 12:30 this seminary student came to intereview us and take some pictures.

We finally started to record today! It's really funny because Leedoh*, who was recording, is my essentially my drumming mentor, but I was telling him what to change and play differently! I felt overly picky agian, but I'm assuming that's what the project needs. Next time I'm definitly doing the hat/disguise thing (refer to the last post).

Richched* told me that MV had their JR. Prom last night. Wow-I knew people were getting ready, but I didn't know it was happening so soon! Have fun buddies.

I'm listening to Mozart right now. Man, that guy was crazy smart and genius.

Had a UV practice with Aa* and Kk*. Those two are great; Aa is really good at piano and Kk sings really well. I just felt kind of snooty making comments and talking to them in all this musical jargon. I think next time I do something like this, I'll wear a hat so there is a clear distinction between the GOOD Tim and the BAD Tim (Good Tim=no hat, Bad Tim=hat). Oh well, the job has to be done.

Pray for me because my throat isn't feeling good and I have to sing tomorrow.

Random thoughts and feelings today:

I ate chocolate today. Does that give you an idea how I'm feeling?

I just finished teaching a student and I feel so tired that I would like dissappear for just one hour. I guess I'll just listen to some BoA.

While leaving school in the rain today, I was really feeling life's painful sting. A lot of things were bringing me to realize how much I needed God. I started to sing; it really encouraged me:

Lord you have my heart, and I will search for yours
Let me be to you a sacrifice

That reminds me: I really need to practice singing again.

aHHHHHHg.

I didn't win that competition.

My teacher said that I'm some "alternative" something, and that if another student is sick I will attend the masterclass. That's totally crappy, because that means that I was THIS CLOSE *makes tiny gesture with fingers* to getting into that class.

At least I'm playing for the panel recital thing.

My teacher told me today that my neck gets so enflamed because I hold my violin too tight. Thanks a lot teacher, you could have told me that years ago!

I am having an ultra good hair day:

Possible reasons for the good hair day phenomenon:
-Today I'm using gel from the bottom of the bottle
-Yesterday I wore a hat
-April weather has a positive effect on hair
-I sat awake in deep thought last night

Or maybe I'm going blind, and my hair doesn't look good at all.

I'll bet some of you are screaming "WHO CARES!!!" right now. YOU do, obviously; why else would you be reading this? Go ahead and try to close this window-RIGHT NOW. I dare you. I double dare you... come on.

(What's this??! I think I WON!)


Kady* just passed by now and said "Hey loser!"

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  I just got my Spanish grade back-and get this- I got another big, fat, red, A. Oh yeah! This is actually really strange because I don't enjoy Spanish nearly as much as I do math, but I'm screwing up my math grade!!

Life is so funny.

  I think this is because I'm taking Spanish for the mission trip to Mexico, and therefore God is blessing the my Spanish work. On the other hand, I'm taking math for reasons that I still don't understand (for work? YEAH RIGHT), therefore ..yeah, my grade is messed up. Moreover, this is another way for me to see that I'm not that good at math. I take is as a humbling experiance... again.

I've been using email like crazy to organize practices and such. Now I realize how cool email is! Faaaaaaaar OUT.

Remember how I said I found out that I like talking to people? It's so cool-when walking from class to class I'll just stop and make small talk with whichever classmate is passing by. For example, today I to this American Asian person. In just a few minutes I found out her name, that she's half Chinese, and where she works. I'm getting pretty good at this! I think that people always have a lot to say, but they need to first be encouraged to say it. Especially in City College, where people don't socialize as much compared to high school (I assume so, at least), things need to conversationally be shaken up a bit.

Weird, the "Bane" Batman Beyond episode suddenly came to mind. I'm having too many random thoughts today.....

You homies.

"Don't you mean 'yo' homies?"

Nope, you homies.

I posted pictures up because that seems to be what's cool nowadays. Oh yeah, I sort of bombed my math midterm, but if I study hard for the remaining tests my grade should be OK.

I take it as another humbling experiance.

Well I'm back from LA; how exhausting! All that driving to play a 10 minute audition, whew.

I played well, so thanks to you who prayed for me (sorry, I didn't give much notice in advance). I had no mental hang-ups whatsoever; wahoo! The association gave me $100 to congratulate my effort thus far!

It's kind of funny, because the piano player cost my family more than what they gave me... Oh well.

hehe I had a good REASON talk with Glam* last night. Reason jargon to da max fellas-bahahaha. I kept on having to ask Glen what certain terms meant. Gate? Velocity? Ohhh, volume control.

I'm leaving for LA in about 40 mins. Pray that I won't be nervous and play well, OK?

   My math midterm was unbelievable insane, to say the least. Mrs. Teacher gave us students an extra 40 mins to take the test (before and after the normal period), and still all but two students stayed the entire period. It was insanity; never before have I left a test with answers I KNEW were incorrect. I dressed sharp too, thinking that it would make me smarter for the test. Only the grade will decide whether the effort was worth it or not.

   There were only nine problems though, so if I blew one question, I'll get a.... B.

    If I didn't see so many funny things every day I would probably go insane.

...

"I know Your love
I've heard it sung a thousand times before
Still I cry for You

I stay completely quiet
I'm determined to rest
In Your strength"
-LaRue