My hair right now can do this..


And this too. My hair is at a good length now


And I may be up to this.. maybe

Mrs. Szabo, I don't really like the Switchfoot hair. It looks cool, but it would make me look like an old rockstar (which would be hecka cool for some, i guess)! I would really prefer kpop stuff. I'm thinking to let everything grow out and just trim/adjust the shape.

I just read my sisters xanga for the first time. "I love my Jesus, and Jesus loves YOU." Good job sis.

Wouldn't it be cool to be a tennis player-and I mean a seriously cool tennis player. I find that I prefer to watch more physical sports like football, soccer, and hockey, but if I was to actually BE an athlete... tennis would be cool (volleyball too... hang out with all the tall guys!). I like their look, attitude, everything, yeaaah they're cool. But now, as a kid i like dancing. When I finish college I want to be hardcore status. What I've learned is that a person is able to learn almost anything if he or she puts in practice and is motivated. Speaking of hip hopping, I'm visiting Leland high school next week or the week after to meet with this breaker (friend of a friend) and I'm suppose to teach him how to dance. Hopefully he'll be teaching me... if he's any good. Poser? Maybe. And see here I'm not a poser cuz i don't claim to be anybody; just a fan of the hip hopz dance. It's not just about the moves, its about the way you present yourself and your attitude. Like I saw this one dancer, and he was just walking a few steps foward before he started dancing. He adjusted his hat, threw his shoulders back, looked down, and walked foward with his back straight. Don't try to imagine it, because it can't be replicated in (my) words. That was one of the coolest things I had seen in a while. Dancing is like acting and it's like you take on a different character.

Dance and reach out to poor kids.

Today I got to formally meet a Dave, a student in the A.P.E class. He is a regular attendee of class, but somehow I had never been able to chat with him. Today, however, I had a good talk with him and got to know him much better. Dave is a 27 year old Asian American and works as a professional club DJ. I asked him when he started as a DJ, and to my surprise, he told me that he had began at age 15. By age 19 he was a paid professional. I was somewhat surprised, because most of the disabled people in class don’t work. Yet Dave is physically and mentally disabled, his movements and speech has been slowed down, and still works in a great job. I didn’t ask him what type of accident or health issues he went through, but I could see that he had a hole on his neck from some prior surgery. I’m pretty sure Dave has retained all of his mental ability prior to his disability. Although he moves and seems to act differently than an average person, I can tell he is still intelligent. He was adjusting his life jacket while in the pool, and because I could tell he was fumbling with the straps, I asked him if he was all right. “This jacket sucks,” he said. He’s a completely normal guy, just disabled.

n he'z into Hip HOpP. by the way. the stuff written above looks really geeky because im supposed to edit it up all nice and send it to my english teacher.

Today before Bio lab my teacher was handing back completed lab assignments. I was talking to my Viet friend Tu and I noticed that the instructor, Mrs. Talbot, was holding my assignment in front of me. I was like "thank you," and removed the paper from her hand, with a little bit of effort. Now this was weird; she just stood there o_O.

"What are you educational goals?" What a random question. I told her about my dream of music school in the fall. For some reason I thought she was mentioning it because I had gotten a C on the last midterm -_-;; "I've noticed you have a skill for teaching."

Oh, and my friend Fernando and this girl in glass are starting to hang out together. They are really funny and hecka cool people! Fernando uses reason (electronica) to make hip hop. And he's into classic rock and roll (ACDC type stuff). Cool! And the girl is just a funny kid who plays tricks on him.

Studying bio :) hee hee.. uh... its fun, yeah. So as I mentioned before, the guy who I used to help exercise in the pool died recently, so I'm now helping a variety of disabled people at school. Some are quite cool while some are quite weird (honestly). I love them all though. How can I tell them about Christ?

Aww man I have a headache "/. I should cheer myself up! Or maybe when you don't feel so good, you don't to be like a rainbow and/or sunshine. Maybe thats just pushing yourself? I'm notttt sureee.


Proverbs 25:15a
"Through patience a ruler can be persuaded.."

Ecclesiastes 7:8
"The end of a matter is better than its beginning, and patience is better than pride. "

I was talking to my friend Hsiu Fan from church. We'll we concluded that people shouldn't feel SO bad when they do something embarassing, because everybody does things that embarass themselves from time to time.

Hsiu fan, in an attempt to make me feel less stupid due to the fact that I'm very hard on myself, told me how the other day he was at the YMCA and mistook a girl working out for someone he had met before. He approached her and introduced himself and asked what her name was (OH MAN x/). He thought she was a girl he had met before. Turns out that after a few minutes of "floundering" he found out that he had mistaken this girl for someone else. He said that she was very confused.

Yes. So the moral of the story is that everyone does stupid stuff unintentionally. Aside from the story, I also found that working out and violin makes you happy. By the way, I didn't ask Hsiu fan if i could share his great story so shhhhhhhh. :)

Because i have time, i'm editing this post and writing more. I don't know why I'm so hard on myself. For example, people have said that I'm a great musician but I never believed them. At my college auditions and at my music lessons, I felt like I was a bad player even when I received positive comments. I honestly don't think I'm very good at music at all. I've only played one perfect performance in 13 years of playing. And I've practiced something perfectly only a handful of times. Maybe you think that's bragging, but view it in this light: my teacher requires every exercise he assigns to be played with only a single mistake at most in order to pass it. Think about it, there's so much to learn and so much ability that I will never achieve (see: heiftz, if i spelled it right). But I am proud at what I have already acheived. I just know that there is so much potential that I have not yet reached!

What do I find satisfaction in then? When I'm teaching and I experiance one of those "kids say the darndest things" moments. I love that!! and when I do something that makes others happy and brings smileeess to their faces!! What else? stay tuned. You don't often get such in depth journal entries!


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Cl onetIm (10:40:14 PM): hey Friedrick*
*******be (10:40:17 PM): wanna go to a ***** ****?
Cl onetIm (10:40:23 PM): no not really

*named changed. I have the most interesting converstions with this guy.

Cl onetIm (5:33:08 PM): have you eaten chinese egg tarts before
liljooti******IE (5:34:31 PM): nope
liljooti******IE (5:34:33 PM): wut are they?
Cl onetIm (5:36:06 PM): they're these snacks that are really good
Cl onetIm (5:36:12 PM): I'll hook you up with them some day
liljooti******IE (5:37:18 PM): haha okay!
Cl onetIm (5:41:39 PM): its shaped like a cupcake
Cl onetIm (5:41:43 PM): but flatter
Cl onetIm (5:41:55 PM): it has a pie crust like crust
Cl onetIm (5:42:09 PM): and its filled with this sweet egg stuff
Cl onetIm (5:42:13 PM): that tastes really really good
liljooti******IE (5:44:46 PM): oHh icic
liljooti******IE (5:44:47 PM): cool
Cl onetIm (5:45:16 PM): ask some chinese person about it
Cl onetIm (5:45:20 PM): they probably like it
Cl onetIm (5:45:27 PM): so some day i will buy you one
lilliljooti******IE (5:46:41 PM): haha okay!
Cl onetIm (5:46:58 PM): am i being overly enthusiastic?
Cl onetIm (5:47:07 PM): its just that its exciting cuz their so good!
Cl onetIm (5:47:30 PM): but then if i hype it up... it may not live up to the hype when you eat it
liljooti******IE (5:48:09 PM): hahaa
liljooti******IE (5:48:11 PM): yeah.. maybe?
liljooti******IEE (5:48:12 PM): i donno
Cl onetIm (5:48:25 PM): well ill wait until you forget about it
Cl onetIm (5:48:35 PM): so itll be like a surprise and it'll be good
Cl onetIm (5:48:40 PM): i told matt i would get him one too
liljooti******IE (5:48:46 PM): ahah
liljooti******IE (5:48:47 PM): okayy
Cl onetIm (5:49:07 PM): maybe i shoudl buy some for my brother
Auto response from liljooti******IE (5:49:07 PM): I am away from my computer right now.

liljooti******IE (5:57:48 PM): haha cOOl your brother
Cl onetIm (5:58:27 PM): LOL im sorry im being so random
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liljooti******IE (5:59:00 PM): egg tarts
liljooti******IE (5:59:14 PM): they sound weird
Cl onetIm (5:59:54 PM): in chinese its called "dahn dahh"
Cl onetIm (6:05:21 PM): you'll like it
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liljooti******IE signed off at 6:05:58 PM.

HAHA i can be soooo annoying sometimes!!! xP

These two guys are the korean hip hop group Drunken Tiger (FYI I they call themselves hip hop, but basically they're a rap group and don't sing). It sounds pretty good. I saw their interview online yesterday and they're Americans. What's weird is that they said that their rap sometimes "Doesn't make sense" in korean, but if you listen "deeply" it makes a lot of sense. It's funny because when the rap in English I can't understand what they're saying. I mean I can't tell if it makes sense or not because I can't even understand their English... And their English was fine in the interview. In the interview they didn't seem that smart. If you want to download one of their songs on kazaa, i rec NY 2 Shanghai

  
These two girls make up the pop group As One. They're also Korean American, or more like Americans living in Korea. Its weird, after seeing stars interviewed you think of them a lot differently. Their music is GREAT. But they don't really seem to be that smart. Like they seem like the type that just sing... and don't really write or anything. Oh well. They're favorite things to do is hang out with friends and eat and shop.

Then there's this very pretty, very talented and humble Chirstian Korean singer named J who seems very smart and stuff. but I cant find any pics of her. except this one that's a weird size

watch her interview. It's in english.

AHHHHHHHHH I am so messed up in my head right now. My old teacher called me and is doing what she always did: getting me to perform for master classes and recitals etc.. I never want to do it but she always makes me feel obligated and I end up doing it. She says of all the people I will be letting down and why i played for young artist guild in the first place. (the "prize" is a master class). Why cant i just not accept the prize? I dont want to travel to SoCal for a 1 hour violin lesson. God help me. God help me. I told her how I dont want to do this master class. OMG what a terrible teacher-student relationship. thats why i like byung. Business like. Professional. the way it should be. Why am I so easy to control?! This is terrible. Maybe I need help. Like someone needs to make sure I dont get taken advantage of.

She has my check I got for playing for young artists guild. God Help Me.

The guy I helped exercise in the pool died on Tuesday. I'm gonna go to his funeral whenever it is.

Hey God helped me today. DARN homework. God you can help me with this too, I know.

It's good to be back in school. But gosh darn it some of my grades aren't so hot. Oh well, I'll pass at all costs and go to some institution of higher learning im sure.

So i have a problem. SF has offered 7k, but my parents say it's not enough. So if I cant get another 8k I can't attened. So last night until like 1am I was working on a letter asking for an additional 8k. OMG it reads like soo weird. they may read the letter and just spit and go "what the hell is this kid saying?" Yeah... so my printer ran out of ink and I was going crazy setting up another printer. And when i got that set up i found that we were out of envelopes. Pretty depressing. Thank God there's God.

And today I need to explain to bruce that I had to cancel Saturday's gig. Darn. I'm in trouble. Again, thank God that he has plans for my life to prosper me. Or else I would be fried fashizzle. Fasho God is good. Because this is the day God has made "I will rejoice" and be glad! WOOOHOOO. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Good thing I know that verse or I wouldnt have been able to get out of bed!!

I miss my friends and orchestra and violin. And church too... weird cuz violin interferes with church a lot of the time. I havent seen some of my friends in a super long time! Hey you know what's great, my new teacher Byung Kim works on MY time whereas my old teacher-my life revolved around her 1 million stupid classes and redundant lessons. MAN i love my new teacher. Praise GOD. I respect lessons so much i think next time I'll dress up in slacks and stuff.

I am so glad God has a plan for everything in my life. Cool. Thanks God for not being just a "homeboy" but for being my God, in control Savior, friend, Father, guide, comforter, my everything, all I want and all I need.

Hi this is Tim. I just got from the airport about 2 hours ago! I had a very good trip and did all the "know your roots" type of deal.

In Guang Dong (Canton), there's this important city called Guang Zhou; thats where all my family on my dad's side is. I have uncles and aunts and about 10 cousins (plus there kids which total to around 6). Thats a lot of family actually. So my uncles and aunts are all really really old, but they're the kick butt type of people (cool!). We got to see my dads childhood home and visit some graves. cool. Theres not too much point in me writing so much because i dont have pictures yet, and my writing isnt good enough to explain it all. Ill scan in some pics and get some from my bro then make a nice xanga entry, ok? Overall, the best thing about visiting was that i got to see my relatives again and spend time with my beautiful nieces. I'll talk about them in the xanga tomorrow.

my dad bought me a suit in China. haha glad to be home.

I need to write as much as i can remember from last night, so in the future I can still read this and remember what happened.

so at the begining of the school year people were telling me how i should go to prom my senior year. I thought about it, and figured the best person to go with would be with Kim Possible. Hehe.

YAAAYEE!! so after many acts of God and miraculous happenings, after Thanksgiving break I called Kim up and we she agreed to let me be her date. :D (well untechnically I asked her once before... but it's complicated so I won't go into that) How cool is that? Praise God!

I was pretty nervous and had butterflies in mah stomach Saturday afternoon. Luckily, Mrs. Szabo at worship practice gave me some advice and said that my date would probably be a little nervous too. And yeahh, Kim, I think you were at the photography place (but hey all, she had to organize everything).

I'm not sure what Kim thought, but I thought we were definatly like the coolest team. Like we had a real classy corsage and boutonniere, and I honestly think Kim had the most gorgeous dress, accesorries, and makeup at the prom. How cool is that for me to have such a gorgeous and classy prom date? I represented team cool in the popping aspects and versed a few guys. They weren't bad, it's just that their flavah wasn't too hot. Whatever, that's not important. What's important is that Kim was the best date!

Hahaha I had a lot of fun. Thank you God, Kim, and the Kconnection.

hi. prom is tomorrow.

dropped off assignment at school, worked, practiced, lessoned, ATMed. Oh btw i geled my hair really cool today. haha

tomorrow, ill pick up the flowers, go to worship practice, and then get ready. hmmMMMmm then I'll take it from there.

i just wrote a 5 page research paper all in one day. o myYYYy... i feel like jello!!

I hope my teacher upon reading it will weep for joy. xD

I'll store this info here and once prom is over i'll edit it and put all the info into my xanga.

Today I went to "Bloomster's" and ordered a corsage. I originally went to Almaden Valley Florist, but it wasn't such a nice shop (less organized, selection, etc) and ALSO was more expensive. This Vietnamese lady working there was kinda terse and like snappy... yeah i didn't dig it. So just to re-remind ya'll: higher cost does not always equal better quality service or product. Anwyas, Bloomster's was a very beautiful store-i think you should check it out. This kind old lady helped me choose a corsage (i ordered white orchids, dendrobium i think).

And Nic went with me to Eli Thomas and I got a tux! I thought it was realllyy fun!! It was kind of funny because I'm thin and not tall, so it was hard finding stuff that would fit me. Thanks to nicole (plus the nic connection) we chose a nice silver outfit. I think it looks very nice. I look good in a tux xP!!! Hey you know not everybody does, ok? Nic and I will be very cool, I'm sure.

[after putting on the dress pants, shoes and shirt]
Tim: I feel so skinny.

and then nicole said something very funny heh.