Damn you, effing slutty sell out!!!

Making Cd's, selling out, playing crappy music, grumble grumble.

man this break is basically gone... my time home at least. the school year has gone by so fast... cant say i didnt learn anything, because I learned A LOT. Seriously, college rocks in that respect.

I am debating with myself (not really) whether or not i should release this to the general public. Sure you lucky, smart church ppl can probably find this lined from random journals. But to the public.. I don't know. Sometimes I want ppl to know what I think about, and sometimes I want the freedom to rant and offend nobody.

Sometimes i really wish i didnt care at all what ppl think about me. But i do. Darn.

Recently I have been purposly trying to encourage others. A lot of social problems; dealings with friends and stuff- can be solved by simply being more independant.

be independant.

Bye

have not updated this thing for a while.

So I was reading up on the a capella web site Steve is a part of... this upset me a little. Under Bios:

"God is so good because:
bc God is love, perfect love, no fear, no punishment no nothing... and also that He amazingly works everyday miracles in people's lives, bringing healing to past hurts and pains"

God is perfect. Yes, God is Love (1 John 4:8). But we are to fear God; those who have not put their faith in God should be fearful of the coming judgement and hell. Believers are to fear God, and work out their Salvation with fear (Phil 2). Moreover, fear of God is the beginning of wisdom. I could go on... that just upsets me. In fact I'm angry someone taught this girl a deluded version of Christianity. I'm angry this girl is proclaiming a perverted gospel. The "feel good" gospel message is seriously messed up. Ok enough ranting and feel-good Christian bashing.

I've been working out a lot. It's really fun. I've also been sanding the laundry room wall (tomorrow I'm going to paint the place).

Nothing much more to say exept that God is holy and awesome and I am a miserable, depraved creature compared to His glory. May God have mercy and use a scum like me.
1 Corinthians 4:13
"when we are slandered, we answer kindly. Up to this moment we have become the scum of the earth, the refuse of the world. "